oh, dude, Strange days at blake holesy high (this may contain spoilers for people who haven't watched too far), for sure, it had 3 seasons, and a movie, then poof, in '07 it disappeared off the air, not even a stinkin' re-run. I'm content with getting to see mike seater in Life With Derek, and I'm happy watching the show on youtube... but the movie left so many questions left to be answered. I'm sure there are other BHH fans who agree, if not, you guys are clearly not obsessed enough. I mean, sure the movie was great for fan fic writers, so much left to wonder about, you could make it anything, but I really did wonder, who would Josie have ended up with? Sure Vaughn would be most likely, but after the movie, I just wish they'd done something, 'cause I was really hoping she'd finally realize how much Lucas really cares for her, but then again, Josie is stubborn and dense, and also, they didn't answer ANY questions about the wormhole, they just said "It's gone now, let's move on and end the show" which bugged me so much... And I found the move to be very anti-climatic, so an extra season to answer the question, see who Josie ends up with and all would just be really nice. I hate it when a show has an open ending... it's different with books, 'cause the sequel could come out 8 years from the first for all the author cares, but with a show it just stops, and the re-runs haunt you, making you question what could've been... Oh yeah, and I'd very much like to take all those disney toons that stopped running or were pushed to like 4:00 am and give them a new series... or let them be shown in DAYLIGHT. I liked classic disney, which included BHH, and I can't stand it now, I watch some of it's shows, usually because I support some pairing in it and just watch the parts with them in it, changing channels when they're not. Well anyways, yeah, that was uh... more than I had originally planned to type...
Bye!
*~Essy~*

Hmm... jeez... I'm not exactly sure WHY I settled for Sakura_Neku, but I use other names too.
Maple_Kari is my 2nd most common.
Sharada_Shard is my 2nd last resort when all other names are taken.
essymn is my favorite though, I use it as a last resort though, but it used to be my first choice. I have reasons for all my names.
Sakura_Neku (I would now spell it sakura_neko) Sakura is japanese for Cherry Blossom and those are my favorite flowers and Neko is japanese for cat, may favorite animal.
Maple_Kari, at the time I developed it, I was obsessed with Maple Story and Digimon, may favorite character being Kari (Hikari if you watch the japanese version) so I figured Maple_Kari sounded nice... It's what I use for my e-mail.
Sharada_Shard... hmmm... I... uh... I guess I just like the song Sharada by Skye Sweetnam... and Shard is just removing some a's... so yeah.
Essymn is very simple... Essy is short for Estelle, which is my real name, M is my middle initial and N is my last initial.
I have others that I use on some other sites... with no real reason for them...
Card_Cat_Sakura and Kari_shard_sakura...

My odd habit has to be folding paper when I get nervous, I mean, I think it's odd. I also bit the inside of my lip to keep from smiling, because when I get nervous I have this almost uncontrollable urge to smile, I have no clue why, I used to freak out and almost cry when I got nervous, but now I feel like smiling... I think it's incredibly weird, ya know? Hmmm... I think I'll go try to stop that habit...

Well, when I'm mad, I like to punch pillows and my vast collection of stuffed animals (I think I'm getting to old for them, but then again, you're never to old a for cuddly bear) or cleaning my room, though being told to do that makes me mad and it's my least favorite way to pass the time, but I like to gurmble about my problems whilst putting stuff away, because not only do I get to vent a little but I get to have a feeling of acomplishment for having a tidy room, I also enjoy listening to my favorite songs and singing to them, or drawing, writing, reading or just venting, but not venting in my mind, if I think about it I over think and my anger becomes sadness and then anger again, because I over think everything. Oh yeah, if someone is mad at me and I'm mad and them I make the situation seem like their fault :3 Becasue it makes me feel good to know I'm not to blame. That's how I'm dealing with a small problem now about oweing a crybaby (if you're reading this I have alot of worse things I could call you) ten stinkin' dollars, she stormed away from my house and told my other friend I was talking behind her back to some guy called John. I DON'T EVEN KNOW A JOHN! -.- I'm gonna go clean my room.

Well I suppose...
1) I'd put in the suitcase I got with all my school books, and folders (wih school work or photos), to look back on what I did, how well I did and then laugh at all the doddles I did when I was meant to be working.
2) Tigery, my very first and very favorte stuffed animal, No matter what I'll always love that adorable little tiger.
3) Wells, I'd print out my MSN chat logs, I know than seems weird, but it has my drawings, my friends drawings, what we said to each other, records of my friends, who I was and who I became... And... It'd be more of the real me, than I'd get anywhere else, even from myself, 'cause I'm more myself when I'm talking to them on MSN than I am anywhere else, or to anyone else, online I'm bright and bubbly, always happy, not in a bad mood, and finding good in life... in RL, I'm dark, moody and hating, complaining and always negative, but I've been working on that, ever since I realized my persona was nothing like me, since she's the happiest person ever to live.

hmmm... I can do that in a word, and that word is odd, but a scentence...? Alright.
I'm crazy, wild, rebelious, bossy, self centered, un gracious, cruel, sarcastic, creative, kind, sensitive, smart and incredibly random.
There, I think I listed everything... My god, I dissed myself so many times there... o.o But, that is the mere truth in describing me.

Little bored right now, figured I'd write something... so, it's 12:26 am, I'm tired, sleep deprived and guess what? Nothing interesting is happening, I think I'll go drink 8 cans of soft drink, loaded with sugar, then drink 6 glasses of sugar and see how I take it... *sigh* I recently got back into my old favorite show, Strange Days at Blake Holesy High or Black Hole High. I'll refer to it as BHH, cause it's shorter. ^^
I've seen the movie and all, and I hate how they tease us with Vaughn, Josie and Lucas... It's no fair! ...I won;t say what happened, but it really did disspaoint me, I learnt things from that show, and the real reason I watched was for the couple I was supporting... That's 2 years of my life I'll never be getting back, but anyways, it's a seriosuly great show, you learn stuff, get a cool story and complex characters, with their own little problems, plus the show isn't one of those things that goes around with 1 character and has sidekicks helpin' out, alot of the episodes are centered around the other characters, other than the main. It's an awsome show, you should watch it... It's on youtube, you'll love it, plus you can learn stuff.
Anyways, I started watching Shugo Chara recently too, it's a really cool series. It stars a pink haired girl called Amu,
<-------- Amu from Shugo Chara
 who is really cool, but is also really sweet, shy, sensitive! *^-^* The shows is pretty interesting, plus it's an anime, so I liked it already, yeah, I'm an anime fan, and is there anything else to say...?
Well, I'm a hypocrite, I ranted about celeb crushes, and now I have one, ridicule me if you must, but iMike Seater is just way too hot... *squee- Enters fangirl mode* He's so awsome... ^^; It's probably odd that I really really like him, and yet I ship Mike&Ash. Ah~ well... Life is odd sometimes. Well yeah, anyways, thanks for visiting the world of Craziness, back away slowly and exit the door, come back next time if you want more!
*~Card Shard Sakura~*
SAYOUNARA! BYE! *waves and smiles*

Well, it's actually pretty complicated, just to say yes or nowouldn't be the smartest thing...  being a girl is cool, you don't get beat up, because no one beats up 12 year old girls at school, even if they're all older than you, high school sucks. But being a guy has it's pros and cons too, one of the pros is you don;t have your period, no damn cramps and you wouldn't have to give birth, so I guess that's pretty good, plus guys are always taken more seriously, the leaders of the world think girls can't do shit. It really ticks me off, because girls are just as good as boys., but I love being a girl, but sometimes I'd like to be a boy, cause boys are kind of cool, but they all seem immature at my age, so I pretty much hate all of 'em, they act like idiots, and girlsa seem more matur, but they seem so much meaner, the snipe and refuse to talk to you for no reason. Guys get the same thing, only physically, so being a girl is pretty nice. Well... Yeah, I'm happy being a girl, but being a guy for a day or a little while'd be cool, but I NEVER want to give up being a girl, you get to dress better and wear skirts without being called gay. =/ Honestly though, wearing a skirt is pretty comfortable, so I get why some guys at like 5 want to wear them, what I don't get is why some people won't let 'em... -.-; We learn by trying new things...

 Alright, well, I'm bored, so here goes, When I was 5, 6 or 7 I was at the butterfly house at the melbourne zoo. My friend came over to me with a butterfly in her hand and she said "Man it's hot in here" sp she wiped her forehead to get rid of the sweat, but the butterfly was in that hand and it went on her forhead and my friend started freaking out for no reason. She started running around yelling "IT'S EATING MY BRAIN!" I grabbed the butterfly off her forhead and, being so young, thought it was completely adorable, so I hugged it, which was a pretty dumb thing to do, because I crumpled it's wing and nearly killed it. My friend started crying about how I was a murderer and that "Billy Bob" was dead. She then saw another pretty butterfly and grabbed it. She was careful NOT to kill it and shot me a glare when she pointed this out. She crying "Bibby bill is so cute!" I walked over to her and snatched it ouf of her hand, and for some reason about 3 other butterflies went over to her and I was glaring at her because I wanted the butterflies to like me best, so I pulled some food out of my pocket, but my teacher saw and I got in trouble, I was forced to wait outisde and my drama queen best friend walked out and was grinning like an idiot yelling about being the butterfly queen but it came out as "FI AMF FRA BUFFERFI FWEEN!" and I walked over to her, wondering why she sounded so wierd, and it turned out she'd eaten them. Yeah, it's gross and yes, I  had a very odd friend, but she was entertaining, but she did make me vomit that day.